Monday, December 7, 2009

Where is my joy?

I used to have such joy. Then I came to college.
I think that my problem is that in high school, I was comfortable where I was and with what few friends I had for the most part. Now that I'm here, I think I'm preoccupied with making new friends and fitting in.
I was not born to fit in, people. I have never fit in. In high school I was The Conservative One. I've loosened up in college, at least as far as how I relax, but I wonder if I've lost some of myself in doing so. Have I compromised my inner Brooklynn by not being the "prude" that I once was? Am I losing myself? Has that taken away my joy?

Am I ashamed of Jesus? Am I ashamed of the radical way that the Lord has changed my life and saved me? Is my fear of getting "in your face" keeping me from celebrating the new life that I have in Christ? In order to make new friends and be "user-friendly", am I forsaking the joy that I found in Jesus?


Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's not worth it. Whatever it is that I'm doing, I'm definitely doing it wrong. I love Jesus, I'm forever grateful for His work in my life, and because of His death and resurrection, His love, I am saved.

I can not be silent.

-Brookie

5 comments:

kmnutter said...

Hey girl! Katelyn Nutter here! And I just wanted to say I COMPLETELY agree with you, girl... We need to put the God back into our lives as a society!

God is good. All the time.
All the time. God is good.

Miss you, already! I have no idea how I'm gonna deal all Christmas Break with out my conservative southern belle!

With love,
Your "dirty" liberal Yankee. :D

Brookie said...

NUTTER!
Thank you for visiting (AND COMMENTING I LOVE COMMENTS!) my blog!

Mission: Bring Jesus to everyone. You in?

kmnutter said...

Hahaha, AM I IN?!?!

Was there ever a question of me being out?!!?

I hear he's coming soon.. ;] Oh, goodness.

Brookie said...

THE END IS NIGHT, KATELYN NUTTER! THE END IS VERY, VERY NIGH!
=D

kmnutter said...

Dear Brooklynn,

I MISS YOU ALREADDDDDYYYYY!!!!

AHHHHHHH!

Come. To. Michigan.

RIGHT. NOW.

Well, not right now. Cause I'm not there. But I will be there in 10 hourssss! :D :D :D :D